where all the other young lovers are found...

Sunday, Nov. 29, 2009 | 11:32 PM

i went for a walk today, for the first time since my mom went to the hospital. i was feeling depressed and the little bit of sunshine drew me outside. i started at the park and then walked a little bit around the very small neighborhood. when i ended up back at the park, i was tired, but not yet ready to leave the sunshine. so i sat down on a bench.

i was near the parking lot and started thinking about when i had been sitting there before. i remembered the times that i sat there, waiting and watching for that motorcycle to pull into the parking lot. i remember fearing that he wouldn't show up, but he did.

i remember his cute little wave.

now david is my california dreamer. i am being honest when i say that i hope that his dreams of going to berkeley come true... and if they don't, i will share in his disappointment. but i am also being honest when i say that if (when) he moves away to california, i will be crushed.

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