i felt like i was being attacked

Tuesday, Jun. 02, 2009 | 3:48 AM

[02:00] <reiann> hi spiffy
[02:00] <Cookieart> hi spiffy
[02:01] <spiffy> hi
[02:01] <Cookieart> age and gender please spiffy?
[02:01] <spiffy> 21, female
[02:01] <Cookieart> kewl and welcome !!
[02:01] <reiann> welcome to DSC
[02:01] <Cookieart> where u from spif?
[02:02] <spiffy> oregon
[02:02] <Cookieart> hows the weather there?
[02:02] <spiffy> hot
[02:02] <Cookieart> ugh u can keep it lol
[02:02] <spiffy> it's better than cold
[02:03] <Cookieart> not for me im a cold baby i love cold weahter
[02:03] <spiffy> i don't handle cold well
[02:03] <Cookieart> cold gives me energy
[02:04] <Cookieart> im hungry excue me a sec
[02:04] <Cookieart> so spif why u up early?
[02:05] <spiffy> i haven't slept yet
[02:05] <Cookieart> how come?
[02:05] <spiffy> i'm nocturnal
[02:05] <Cookieart> lol another vampire?
[02:05] <spiffy> i suppose
[02:05] <Cookieart> what do u do?
[02:06] <spiffy> basically nothing
[02:06] <Cookieart> nothing? at all? work? school? family?
[02:06] <spiffy> nope, nothing
[02:07] <Cookieart> why? u down or something?
[02:07] <spiffy> well, getting a job is hard, and i haven't been wanting to go to school
[02:08] <reiann> not got a b/f hon?
[02:08] <Cookieart> is there anything u want to do with your life?
[02:08] <spiffy> i do, actually...but i only get to see him on weekends... except this weekend i didn't, so i'm extra depressed
[02:08] <spiffy> i don't know what i want to do with my life
[02:09] <reiann> so how do you pass the time?
[02:09] <Cookieart> then u should consider wrting down on paper what u would like to do
[02:09] <reiann> brb need cuppa
[02:09] <spiffy> i browse around on the internet, i watch tv and clean up after animals
[02:10] <Cookieart> me too we are in the same boat but im way older than u,you have a life ahead of u
[02:10] <Cookieart> u shouldn't depend on your boyfriend either
[02:10] <spiffy> i don't have any other friends
[02:11] <Cookieart> neither do i but why not find some?
[02:11] <spiffy> because i am afraid of people
[02:11] <Cookieart> oh why is that? u have trust issiues?
[02:11] <spiffy> i have social anxiety
[02:11] <Cookieart> ok u take meds?'
[02:12] <spiffy> no
[02:12] <Cookieart> why not?
[02:12] <spiffy> because ssri's suck
[02:12] <Cookieart> look into other ways to get help
[02:14] <Cookieart> sitting around won't help
[02:15] <spiffy> i don't know what would help
[02:15] <Cookieart> lalallaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
[02:16] <Cookieart> u have to work on that girl
[02:16] <Cookieart> no one can help u unless u do that youself
[02:16] <Cookieart> is that your horse?
[02:17] <spiffy> that's my friend's horse
[02:17] <Cookieart> kewl they are great companions
[02:18] <Cookieart> well reann should be back any sec, im going back to bed
[02:19] <Cookieart> chat with reann
[02:19] <spiffy> ok
[02:19] <reiann> kk hon
[02:19] <reiann> rest well
[02:19] <Cookieart> ((((((((((((((((((all))))))))))))))))))))))))
[02:19] <reiann> (((((((((((((((((((cookie))))))))))))))
[02:20] <reiann> so you dont do much spiffy?
[02:20] <spiffy> no
[02:20] <reiann> don't you get bored?
[02:20] <spiffy> yes
[02:20] <reiann> do you read listen to music?
[02:20] <spiffy> i listen to music sometimes
[02:21] <reiann> help around the home?
[02:21] <spiffy> not really
[02:21] <reiann> you live with parents?
[02:21] <spiffy> yeah
[02:22] <reiann> you let mum do it all?
[02:22] <spiffy> i guess
[02:22] <reiann> why?
[02:22] <spiffy> i don't know
[02:23] <reiann> have you siblings?
[02:23] <spiffy> i have half siblings
[02:23] <reiann> how old?
[02:24] <spiffy> um... late 20's early 30's or something
[02:25] <reiann> they dont live at home tho?
[02:25] <spiffy> no
[02:25] <reiann> you might like helping mum
[02:25] <spiffy> i already take care of a bunch of animals
[02:25] <reiann> not fair her looking after it all
[02:26] <reiann> whose animals?
[02:26] <spiffy> my animals
[02:26] <reiann> not helping mum is it tho
[02:27] <reiann> so your basically in school?
[02:27] <spiffy> well i haven't taken classes in over a year
[02:27] <reiann> omy
[02:27] <reiann> tried getting a job?
[02:28] <spiffy> i have applied at a few places
[02:28] <reiann> what ever do you live on?
[02:29] <reiann> money wise
[02:29] <spiffy> um, my parents
[02:29] <reiann> ouch
[02:29] <reiann> big girl now need to support yourself
[02:29] <reiann> they feed your animals as well?
[02:30] <spiffy> yes
[02:30] <reiann> and you don't help them?
[02:30] <spiffy> this isn't helping me feel better
[02:30] <reiann> truth hurts sometimes hon
[02:31] <reiann> are you disabled?
[02:31] <spiffy> you have no idea what my life is like
[02:31] <reiann> tell me then?
[02:31] <spiffy> no, i'm not, i started coming in here because of no one being in the depression room
[02:31] <reiann> oh thanks second best?
[02:32] <spiffy> well i otherwise probably would not have come into a room called disabled support circle when i am not disabled
[02:32] <reiann> you suffer from depression?
[02:32] <reiann> we cover depression as well
[02:32] <spiffy> yes i do...
[02:33] <reiann> got meds to help?
[02:33] <spiffy> i have to go now
[02:33] <spiffy> my boyfriend called
[02:33] *** Disconnected ***

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