five thousand things

Wednesday, Apr. 30, 2008 | 6:26 AM

i have like five thousand things on my mind. it's always especially hard to get myself to go to bed when i have so much on my mind. i do have two vicodins i could take. that would help. i shouldn't though. i shouldn't take them both together, and i should save them for really bad headaches or something. i shouldn't do it. but i am tempted.

i've been feeling kinda lonely and depressed lately. it was so great when i had someone to talk to almost every day. i took that for granted.

the amount of time i spend thinking about animals is amazing.

i've been using my abundance of pictures to create cute animal images to go on shirts and things, and uploading them to cafepress. after i have a good number of them, i'm gonna put them all under a domain, advertise it a bit, and see how much money i might make from it. it might be yet another failure, but then again, it might not be. this is my favorite one so far.

i think i lost all of my old readers from here. that makes me sad. anyone still out there? neshachan? ticktrix? ricky? ...anyone? did you get sick of my whining?

any new lurkers out there want to make yourself known?

i'm still getting this pain around the area where the liver is located. it gets really, really bad sometimes. ideally i should go to the doctor, but there's no money for that, and i can't really explain to my parents why i'm particularly concerned. but i know that God is mightier than anything i've done to myself. whatever's going on in there, even if it is really serious... he can heal it. so i'll just have to believe that he will. maybe you folks out there of the christian variety could pray for me?

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