my mind does not want to stay put

Monday, Apr. 14, 2008 | 8:58 PM

i went to youth group early again yesterday.

i guess melissa had read my blog entry about my dream, and told joel. he seemed kinda excited about it, and really wanted me to tell him about it. i would have loved to, but...i could not. i really have never verbally talked about something like that. not to mention, i'm still obviously working on talking comfortably with them, even about stuff of a more superficial level.

i really do want to be able talk about things on a deeper level, things that have meaning. i really do crave meaning. but i need time and patience.

i did get to talk about what i wanted to talk about last week though. or rather, i got to ask a question and get an answer. it wasn't extremely conversational, but it was good. and joel prayed. that's always encouraging.

so yeah that was cool. i'd write more, but for some reason i'm having a really hard time focusing. it actually took me about two hours to get this written out. my stupid mind keeps wandering off.

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