aaarrrggghhhh!!!

Thursday, Dec. 06, 2007 | 1:45 AM

i. am. SO. stressed.

oh my gosh. i cannot relax.

i really want to write about the concert, i really really do, but i can't focus. i am stressed about a multitude of things, but mostly homework. i have to finish the website for the dreamweaver class. i haven't worked on it in weeks. i have a ton of things to do with it, and it's gonna take a lot of time. i feel really pressured now to make it really good, because the teacher wants to show it to the whole class this coming tuesday.

i also have some ms word assignments to do, one of which has to be done at the school, because i need a valid copy of word to do it... which i don't have. i have an illegal copy. it was really my only choice. get a free copy, or not take the class. word is WAY to expensive to buy just for a silly class.

i also have a very difficult excel assignemt staring me down. it has to be done by wednesday. it's extra credit, but my passing the class absolutely depends on it.

after tomorrow, i'll also have some unix assignents and a test to get done in a week.

i'm worrying about all of that, i'm worrying about writing about a bunch of things to post here, i'm worrying about buying stuff for people for christmas, i'm worrying about going to the doctor again, i'm worrying about the animals... and oh gosh, that reminnds me... i didn't check on the birds today. i haven't in a while. i keep meaning to but then i keep forgetting.

it's all too much.

i've had a hard time doing anything tonight. my mom has been upset, and that adds to the stress, i took this new pill, i think that makes me more anxious rather than less... just hearing the noise of me typing on the keyboard is stressing me out. i keep making a bunch of typos, that's adding to it. the cats running around is really adding to it. i really need to let the ferrets out, which is also stressing me, but i don't think i can handle their crazyness right now.

i am so stressed that i am shaking.

i'm on the verge of taking a bunch of pills, that'll relax me... but then i'll be too out of it to work on homework.

i am feel like i am being ripped apart at the seems. i am going to explode.

oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh... someone tell me that it's all gonna be ok.

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