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is this normal...?

Wednesday, Oct. 24, 2007 | 10:55 PM

i think i am going crazy. seriously.

when i was younger, i drew inside myself, and i had a sort of an imaginary world inside my head. i'd talk, in my mind, to the people there that i imagined. then i imagined their responses and stuff, and i'd go back and forth and stuff. so in doing this, i basically was having a conversation in my own mind, with my own mind. i didn't do this on purpose, really. it just kinda happens. it was probably an attempt at coping with isolation, or at least emotional isoloation... and stuff like that.

but then over the last few years, i still did it to some degree, but it lessened a ton. i just didn't need that.

now it's been happening a lot recently, and i seriously can't control it. i've been trying to get into the shower for over a half hour, but my mind keeps drifting off into this, and then i just kinda pace around or just stand there as i more or less talk to msyelf. and i get so mad, i tell myself, "STOP IT!!" i sat down and said, "i don't want to do this!" but then it just keeps going on.

it's been making it so hard to focus lately. it's driving me crazy.

oh, what is wrong me?

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