sarah's complicated life

Tuesday, Apr. 08, 2008 | 9:16 PM

i don't think i'm doing too good.

i suddenly felt really bad this morning. my stomach hurt, my head hurt, i felt dizzy, it was kinda hard to breathe... it scared me because i'm kinda scared that i might have hurt my liver. which would be like...really bad. i haven't taken any antihistamines since sunday. i'm out now again...and i don't wanna get more.

i went to bed without even taking any melatonin. i only took the desyrel...because i have to.

of course i had a very hard time getting to sleep. not only would my mind not stop...but i kinda have this thing about me...my nose commonly gets all stuffed up when i'm trying to sleep. it actually could be a side effect of the desyrel. it makes it hard to get to sleep, because it takes effort to breathe, and i don't want to breathe through my mouth. this is one reason for taking antihistamines...they solve this problem.

but i don't want to get any more benadryl or doxylamine.

finally, after three hours in bed and after 9 am, i got up and took some melatonin, and the last of some dayquil that's been laying around for a while. it helps with my nose and it uses something else other than an antihistamine.

so the conclusion to all of this is... i need more dayquil.

the problem is, i don't want to ask my parents for some dayquil, because i have no good reason for wanting it, besides the truth, which i can't tell them. i don't want to try to sort of make up a reason...because i'm really paranoid that they'll find out about all this.

so yeah...this has been another episode of sarah's complicated life. thanks for watching. tune in next week for... "too much ferret poop."

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