sigh

Tuesday, Jul. 13, 2010 | 2:20 AM

why do i feel so depressed right now?

i do have that subtle ache inside me from missing david... but i am going to see him again real soon. i don't think that's why i'm feeling depressed.

rehoming my animals isn't why i'm feeling depressed... but maybe it's that fear that i won't be able to stay in california, and then i will have lost david and them.

i guess i would still work on moving out of here. but i'd have to get a job first.

the last couple days with my parents have been really bad. my dad gets SO angry so easily. i long for the three of us to all get along and have fun and enjoy each other's company... but it will never happen. if it hasn't happened in the last 22 years, i can't expect it to happen in the last few days that i will be here. it makes me really sad.

i guess it's a little bit of everything that is making me feel depressed.

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