i have made a big mistake

Thursday, Apr. 23, 2009 | 9:12 PM

ever since i told him that i needed to go to the doctor, my dad has been going on and on about the ferrets. he randomly decided that he should threaten to not take me to the doctor unless i agreed to get rid of the ferrets. he said he was ok with me dying instead because then he could get rid of the ferrets. he did end up taking me, but not before yelling at me a bunch.

today he was still going on about the ferrets. he was telling me that he is going to get rid of them and that he's not joking. i was getting more and more upset but didn't say anything. he gets so mad at me for not saying anything, but if i do it just provokes him more. he gets ideas in his head about what i'm thinking and how i'm feeling, and then decides that these ideas are true. he was telling me that i "know he's right."

jessie was just sitting there not doing anything, and he suddenly said, "i don't want that dog in here anymore" as he started literally kicking her out of the room. i was so upset and it makes me so angry when he is mean to my dogs. i started yelling "she's not even doing anything!" and then i started hitting him.

he got even more mad and yelled at me, "you have made a big mistake!"

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