life is better

Friday, Sept. 26, 2008 | 5:03 AM

so. it's been a long time. i've been busy.

life is so much better now. i am not plagued by depression and loneliness anymore. yes, i still have my moments, but i am no longer enslaved. i am free from that miserable burden. if the feelings do come on, i have a way out now. i have someone that i can turn to now. it's amazing.

i felt like i was losing myself, more and more, for a long time. now i've been given the ability to be completely, 100% myself, without any need for fear. i can be completely uninhibited. i can be free. i am getting to know myself again, and also becoming more comfortable with myself. my confidence level is slowly rising.

i've had more happy and fun moments in the last few months than i'd had in the last several years. life feels like less of a burden when i am given enjoyable experiences in it. i am doing and seeing and experiencing new things. home now feels more like a place to go back to and rest than a cage that i am stuck in.

this summer was the best summer of my life.

it's like i've been given a wonderful gift. it's so amazing.

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