how?

Monday, Feb. 11, 2008 | 5:11 AM

oh how can i learn to trust again? really, how do i do it? how can i learn to trust after being hurt so badly multiple times? how can i learn to trust when the people who were supposed to be the most trustworthy people in life have hurt me so much? how can i gain confidence after being beaten down by these people? how can i learn confidence after learning that standing up for myself is worthless? how can i learn confidence when i learned that the only choice is to sit and take it? how can i learn to believe when everyone's actions speak lies compared to their words?

i know, it seems like i just can't let go of past events. i really want to, i really do. i just... i can't retrain my mind. i just can't do it.

and then people just keep proving that i'm right anyway.

what am i gonna do with myself?

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