overwhelmed

Wednesday, Oct. 24, 2007 | 3:11 AM

it's a perpetual sinking feeling. it's a constant ache. it's a sick feeling. it's a discontentment. it's a desperation. it's unbearable. it hurts SO bad. i'd rather have my arm chopped off than feel this. i'd rather be dead than feel this. it's so bad. i can't stand it. i can't handle it. it's too much. it's too overwhelming. it's tearing me apart. it's so painful. i can't stand this. i can't do this. i can't get through this. i can't stand it. it's so bad. it's suffering. it's torture. it's like the death of a soul. words can't express it. all these words are meaningless. they're nothing. they can't paint a small fraction of the picture. i can't cry anymore. i'm so worn out from it. i want to stop feeling. i want to feel nothing. i want to think nothing. i want to die. i want to hurt myself. it's so bad. it builds and builds and builds. it's been too long. it's not gonna stop. it's not gonna go away. i can't escape it. oh how i want to escape it. oh i want it to stop. i can't stand it. i can't stand it. i can't stand it. i cry myself to sleep too much. i talk to myself too much. my mind doesn't leave me alone. i have no one to turn to now. i want to die.

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