i am disappointed

Thursday, Sept. 27, 2007 | 1:29 AM

so who wants to talk to me every night (or so) so i don't go crazy? any takers?

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i am going to die of nervousness tonight... and then again tomorrow.

sometime, a long time ago, my sister karen added me on myspace. she's the half sibling that i didn't really know. we sent myspace messages back and forth for a bit. she wanted to hang out, gave me her number and told me to call her. i hesitated for a while, and gave her my number, telling her that maybe she should call me instead. she said she would, but never did. communication then ceased for a very long time.

then, the other day, she sent me a random message:

hey, so i have this jumbo ferret cage i don't need anymore. if your interested in it let me know. i need to get it out of my car.

after careful consideration, i decided to say yes, since it was a chance to acually see her. she replied to my answer:

ok cool. it's pretty big. and not put together. i have three days off this week, i can just give you a call. maybe we can meet for lunch or something and you can get it? would tuesday or thursday work for you?

it's interested that she wanted to do more than just transfer the cage. i replied:

well, i don't have my license yet, so my dad would have to give me a ride, and he works till 5:30... and both tuesday and thursday i have class starting at 6 pm. i don't have classes any other days... would another day work?

to which she replied:

well hmm, maybe i can just drop it off and we could go get some ice cream or something?

to which i replied:

sure, we could do that on thursday... about what time?

to which she replied:

so you have class at 6pm? how about i just call you thursday around 11 and take it from there. is this still your number 503 380 ####?

to which i replied:

you could call me around then, but i might still be asleep... and my number has changed, now it's 503-764-####

obviously i will still be asleep, unless i wake myself up. i just wanted to be...i don't know...flexible or something.

she sent me one last message:

ok, i'll just give you a call on thursday then. talk to you later.

so, now it's wednesday night. i am so nervous. i haven't actually talked to her in like ten years. the last time i saw her was while she was walking down the hall in high school. we just looked at each other and then looked away, and that was it. i have no idea how it's gonna go tomorrow. i have no idea what to expect. i wish it didn't have to involve food. i wish i could talk to someone. i am going to go crazy.

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