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Monday, Aug. 06, 2007 | 1:58 AM

i'm starting to get that really depressed and lonely feeling again. i have this overwhelming urge to cry building up inside of me, and i don't think i can hold it in any longer. it's one of those times that i really really really wish i could talk to someone. i wish i had someone that i could just like... call. i know tara would never mind me calling, even at this hour...but i just can't really talk to her. i just lost all that with her. it's just not the same as it was years ago. and call me picky, but i kinda really want someone who is christian.

why is it so impossible for me to make friends? why don't people make more effort towards trying to reach out to me? how many times do i have to pray for it? i know it's too much to ask... i know i should be able to do it myself. but i can't. i just can't. i need someone to make the effort. there has to be someone out there, just one person in the whole world, just one person who will make enough effort...

maybe there is one person in the whole world... but i guess i need someone here in oregon.

i know, i know, i KNOW that i should make the effort to make friends. but it is just SO hard for me. i am making what little effort i can. there has to be someone...who will make up for what i lack.

i need that someone now.

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