i want some ice cream

Wednesday, Jun. 27, 2007 | 2:47 AM

a sudden wave of depression came over me today for like no reason. it sucks and i hate it and i can't make it go away. though playing with frisky helped a little bit.

i brought the baby bunnies in today, because it got pretty hot, and they didn't seem to be handling it too well. i took them back out at about 9:30. it was nice and cool outside. as i was walking across my yard, for some reason stupid steve popped into my head, and for some reason it made me start crying. it was very random.

i put the bunnies in their cage, and then sat down in the grass. i looked up at the sky. it was that time when it's not really dark yet, but not light still either. it was that shade of blue that blends in with the ocean, when looking at it on the beach. you can look out and it appears that the water and sky are blending together. sometimes that's my favorite time of day, when the sky is that shade.

i remembered the times that we talked, while i sat outside as it was getting dark. i really enjoyed it so much. i had someone to talk to, that i actually could TALK to. verbally and openly. we had so much fun sometimes. we laughed so much sometimes.

but then, of course other times it was really boring. we had the boring and the fun.

i was interrupted by my dad coming out. "are you almost done out here?"

sigh. "yeah."

"i wanna let the dogs out."

"go ahead."

i walked inside and then spent much of the rest of the night crying all pathetic like. not just about steve. about life in general. why does it suck so much? why am i the way i am? why can't i be normal? don't you wish i would shut up?

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